New class coming!

Having disappeared for a time, and had my third baby (another boy! at home!) I’m emerging from the blur and I’m teaching my first breastfeeding class tomorrow. I’m working on certification as a CAPPA Certified Lactation Educator, and as part of my course I have to film myself teaching an hour long class. My good friend Heather McLees-Frazier has given me a spot in her Lamaze Class and I’m excited to work with her. I’m going to show a couple of short films during the class, and I thought I would share them here too, since they are excellent resources. The first is an Indian film of a newborn breast crawl (you can see a really interesting cultural difference too – the mama’s face is blurred out as too personal to share, but her breasts and nipples are fully visible. Which is helpful in a breastfeeding film!). The second is a film made by Ameda about how to achieve a good latch. Enjoy!

Here are another couple of great resources on getting off to a good start with breastfeeding:

Size of a newborn’s stomach (from the excellent website owned by the Canadian IBCLC Katie Wickham)

Is baby getting enough milk (from – I include this because it is a number one concern of nursing mamas (and their families).


I’m not very good at this regular blogging thing, am I? That’s not likely to change over the next few months, since I am due any day with #3. I’ve had a lovely year so far, with five births, including two in one night for the first time ever – you can read one of those birth stories over on the ‘Birth Stories and Testimonials’ page. I’m not attending any births over the summer, but look forward to working with new mamas in the new year. What will 2015 bring?

When plans go awry

I’ve had the honour now of attending twenty births as a doula – not many by the midwifery or OB scale, but far more than most people in the US. Six of those births – close to a third! – were cesarean births. Two were planned, and four unplanned (but not emergencies). I am grateful to have had the opportunity to support the mamas and papas through the cesarean experience, and at the same time, I’m sad to have seen so many, relatively speaking. That simultaneous happiness and sadness is a strange thing, and one shared by the families I have worked with.

I had a wonderful cesarean (unplanned but not an emergency) myself with my first son. We worked extremely hard to birth him vaginally (you can read his story on this site) and when it didn’t happen, had a gentle, ‘natural’ cesarean in which my son came straight to my chest under the drapes and I breastfed him there in the OR. I was ecstatic. I was also sad to have not birthed him in the way I had dreamed. No one ever made me feel bad about this dichotomy. Everyone respected my grief. No one said ‘at least you have a healthy baby – that should be all that matters.’ Of course it matters, but it isn’t ALL that matters. I asked myself all kinds of hard questions – what could I have done differently? Did I try hard enough? If I had pushed for another hour/tried a different position/done x, y or z, could it have been different? I made peace with D’s birth (ha – then lost it, and then found it again) and he loves to hear his birth story now.

Witnessing cesareans as a doula is very similar. I’m very fortunate not to have been at any births with what we might (quietly, to one another) call ‘scalpel happy’ care providers. I can honestly say that the cesareans I’ve witnessed were medically necessary. They did not come because of premature induction or at the end of a ‘cascade of interventions’ or at 4.30pm so someone could go home. No parents were pressured into the decision; there was no fear or panic. But there was huge sadness, later of course twinned with the joy of meeting a new baby. I second-guess myself every time. Did I try – or suggest trying – everything possible to avoid this outcome? Did I translate or interpret accurately and helpfully between the parents and the caregivers? Did I guard the parents’ space to give them the most thinking and decision-making time? Did I do enough? In the moment of decision and afterwards I do my very best to help the parents find peace – and I tell them what it helped me so much to hear: you did the right thing. You acted before there was a (likely or very likely) emergency. You will be able to bond. You will be able to breastfeed. You will recover. You will be able to try for a VBAC down the road. It’s okay to be sad and to grieve the birth you didn’t have. Whatever feelings you have, they are okay, they are yours. I will walk with you. You are a mother. You are still a warrior and a birth goddess.

If you are confronting a cesarean birth, there are some things you can do to make it feel less surgical and, well, more ‘birthy’ (all on the basis that it is not an emergency and you and baby are healthy). If you anticipate a scheduled cesarean, you can ask under certain circumstances to wait until you go into labour, so that your baby still gets to pick his or her birthday. Many OB-anesthesiologist teams will allow you to have both a partner AND a doula in the OR with you, or at least to let you have your doula trade in if your baby has to be taken out and your partner goes with the baby. Keeping your birth team with you makes a world of difference, and if your baby has to go to the warmer, then your partner can go with the baby while your doula stays with you (or vice versa). You can ask to play your own music in the OR, and even have your own scent. Ideally you can ask for a ‘natural’ or ‘family cesarean’, which more and more OBs are discovering. In these births, the drapes are lowered so that you see your baby being born (don’t worry, you don’t see any of your insides!). Delayed cord clamping may be available, and your partner may still be able to cut the cord. The baby can come straight to your chest under the drapes for skin to skin contact, with all procedures done with baby on you instead of the warmer, just as in a vaginal birth. You can nurse right there on the table. Your OB may offer to swab your vagina and wipe your baby’s mouth and face in order to populate him or her with your vaginal microbiome – an increasing number of studies are indicating how important this is for long term intestinal health (see this article). All being well, you and baby need not be separated at all.

A cesarean may not  be your first choice. But there are still steps you can take to shape your experience – and your baby’s first few moments earthside.

New beginnings

Well, it turns out that writing a blog is kind of like a job – you have to keep at it! Obviously I slipped rather at that over the autumn and winter so far. The first flush of enthusiasm ebbed, I had several births, I took a neonatal resuscitation class (and was certified, yay!), and I got pregnant again myself. We are expecting our third baby in the summer. All that meant that I dropped the ball on website maintenance.

I’m a little over 15 weeks pregnant now, so I’ll be attending births for another few months as a doula before I go on leave. Every doula has her own preference for working while pregnant. Some barrel on through (which I did last time). Some have debilitating morning sickness or fatigue or risky pregnancies (I make it sound so glamorous) and stop attending births as soon as they see two lines on a stick. With my last pregnancy I attended births until 2 weeks before H was born – we didn’t plan it that way, but she was at the late end and H was early. I’m not certain I gave that mama, papa and babe my absolute best, though I thought so at the time. So this time around, I’m working until mid-April and then going on leave. In the meantime I have several births booked, and it’s my goal to post here once a week or so. Here’s a lovely image for new beginnings.skeleton

Interventions #4

I attended a mama being induced last week, and it reminded me that this post was still waiting to be written. So here it is, finally! I’m discussing medical induction here – if you are interested in ‘natural’ induction, the midwife Aviva Romm wrote an interesting piece last month.

Birth can be induced for all kinds of reasons. Some are medical – baby too small (IUGR), mama’s blood pressure too high. Some are social – dad only has the weekend off work, for example, or a loved or trusted care provider is only available at a particular time. Some reasons are better than others. The March of Dimes has a campaign to encourage parents to wait until at least 39 weeks before attempting an induction, and ACOG says the same thing. One reason is that, while a baby may technically ‘early pre-term’, he or she may not quite be ready for earthside life yet. Both the linked pages above note the increased likelihood of NICU stays for babies born between 37 and 39 weeks. Once a pregnancy reaches 41 weeks, many if not most care-givers prefer to induce, citing an increase in the likelihood of still birth as the key rationale: taken together, various studies have suggested that one still birth will be avoided for every 369 women induced between 41 and 42 weeks. The first key questions, then, when confronted with the option to induce, are ‘why?’ and ‘why now?’

Apart from the need to wait to at least 39 weeks, a factor to consider is that the mama’s body (or rather, the mama-baby partnership) may not quite be ready for labour yet, so that ‘failed induction’ is a big cause of cesarean section, especially in first time moms. If you are confronting a possible induction, it’s a good idea to ask your care provider about your ‘Bishop Score’. The Bishop Score is a number between 0 and 13, calculated by assigning points for cervical position (posterior, middle, anterior), dilation (in centimeters), consistency (firm, medium, soft), effacement, and the extent of your baby’s descent into the pelvis (from -3cm above the ischial spines to +3cm). There is a Bishop Score calculator here. With a score of 8 or higher, an induction is likely to be successful – a doctor or midwife may be able to give you a percentage likelihood. 7 or below means that an induction is unlikely to be successful. If you want to be induced, or are feeling pressure from some source to induce, this information is useful to have. It helps to answer another key question, ‘Will it be likely to work?’ It’s good to know your options if it doesn’t work ahead of time – can you go home, and try again another day (likely not if you have agreed to have your waters broken) or will you be facing a surgical birth?

Once the decision to induce is taken, there are several different options (‘how?’). Some involve causing the cervix to soften (prostaglandins) or dilate (a Foley balloon or certain types of seaweed), while others induce contractions (most commonly Pitocin, an artificial form of the oxytocin that your body naturally produces in labour). Often, artificially rupturing the membranes – breaking the water – is an option. Pitocin and rupturing the membranes can also be used to augment a labour already in progress, usually because it is considered to be going to slowly for some reason. Sometimes, if a mama is very near her time, the merest hint of induction can trigger natural labour: a ‘whiff of Pit’, as it is often known, may be given to set things in motion, but then the mother’s own body takes over and no more Pitocin is needed. For others, a combination of all these factors may be used to try to bring labour: first cervical softeners are applied, then Pitocin is started, then later the membranes are ruptured until finally, hopefully, a good labour pattern is established. Or not. What is your care provider’s preference for you? What is his or her preferred timeline?

What do we need to know about these and other methods of induction and augmentation in order to make our own best decisions? In other words, what information do we need to consider before giving or withholding consent? Please note: I am not a care provider and I have no medical advice (or advice of any other kind) to give. That said, I think we need to have, as best we can, both personal, physiological information (how will my body likely respond?) and provider information (if I dilate to 4cm with a Foley bulb, but contractions do not start, what is your plan?). For example, the cells of the uterus are equipped with oxytocin receptors that cause them to contract when that hormone is present, but they are not switched on until labour is imminent – otherwise you might have contractions every time you make out with your honey. If your labour is not imminent, and those receptors have not been activated, what effect will Pitocin have? Or, if you had plans for an unmedicated labour, but Pitocin causes the intense contractions (and sometimes fetal stress/distress) for which it is well known, how will you manage the resulting agony discomfort or fear? If you planned to move through labour, but must have continuous fetal monitoring due to Pitocin, and be in or near the bed, what will you do? If your care provider asks you to come in and have your waters broken, with the plan to ‘see what happens’, how will you, in the hospital, inform yourself sufficiently to make your best decisions when subsequent steps are suggested? If you are labouring naturally yourself, but your care provider wants to augment your labour, the same kinds of questions apply. Why do you want to do this? Why do you think I need to do it now? What effect will it likely have on me? And on my baby? What are the risks of doing it? And of not doing it? Are there other options? How long do I have to decide?

Providing yourself with good, evidence based information on options for induction and augmentation may help to make some decisions ahead of time. It may give space and time to think and make decisions. Childbirth Connection has a good article on considerations in induction. Henci Goer wrote a great article on elective induction. Evidence Based Birth has a good one on induction for ‘big baby’. And the now quiet blog ‘Birth Sense’ had an interesting series on due dates and inductions, here (click ‘next’ for the two following posts). Many of these articles have links to medical journal articles where you can read cutting edge research – and sometimes, if you feel you need to, present it to your care provider.

Interventions #3

I thought I would cover induction of labour and augmentation of labour at the same time, since similar techniques can be used for each and similar risks and benefits may apply. In order to talk about induction, however, we first need to think about how human beings gestate. It turns out that this topic requires a post all of its own!

Left alone, pregnancy normally lasts for between 37 and 42 weeks (counting from the first day of the last menstrual period or LMP – 35-40 weeks counting from ovulation/conception). This range explains the ‘E’ in ‘EDD’ – estimated date of delivery. Gestation varies more in humans than in any other mammal: it varies between women, and it also varies among the pregnancies of any given woman. It varies partly because cycle length varies in both directions from the average of 28 days. Usually, a woman ovulates about 14 days before the onset of her period. However, the number of days between the onset of the previous period and ovulation can vary a great deal. One woman’s cycle might be 20 days (with ovulation around day 6) while another’s might be 45 days (with ovulation around day 31). Calculating an EDD based on the LMP would be inaccurate for these hypothetical women, and considerably inaccurate in the second case. Of course, ultrasounds are often used to confirm fetal age, and when taken early in a pregnancy, these can be helpful. Later in pregnancy, however, they are considerably less accurate, and can be wrong by perhaps as much as 2 weeks in either direction. Here is an article that goes into greater depth.

The other aspect of an EDD is the normal variation in human gestation. An article published in the journal Human Reproduction in August this year found a variation in pregnancy length of 37 days, even after excluding pre-term births and pregnancies with complications. You can read the abstract online, although you need a subscription for the full article. A woman might have short gestations or long gestations, or vary between pregnancies. Imagine, then, two women. Betty has short cycles and a short gestation. Pam has long cycles (let’s say 35 days) and a long gestation. If both conceive today, August 25, 2013, they get the same due date of 1 June 2014. The error in estimation doesn’t affect Betty so much – she might just be surprised to go into labour in early May next year. However, in most people and very many care-practitioners’ eyes, Pam will be ‘due’ on 1 June and ‘post-dates on 14 June. Living in the United States, she will almost certainly be pressured to induce her baby long before that bundle of joy is ready to make his or her entrance. By her cycle length alone, she would not be 40 weeks pregnant until 8 June, and not post-dates until 22 June. A normal 42 week gestation would put her delivering then – 3 weeks after the due date suggested by her LMP. Conversely, if she induced at 39 weeks from LMP (for whatever reason) her baby would not only be really a 38-weeker, but could be as much as four weeks ‘under-done’.

Why does it matter? Surely in late pregnancy the baby is ready anyway? You know loads of women who have had their labours induced and they and the baby have been just fine? Why do doulas, midwives and natural birth advocates talk about ‘letting your baby choose his or her birthday’? The next post will address these questions.

I was very, very pregnant indeed. But not yet in labour.

I was very, very pregnant indeed. But not yet in labour.


Keeping busy.

I haven’t posted for a while, and it’s because I have been rather busy being a doula. Lots of lovely clients, many pre- and post-natal meetings, a looooooong birth and an interview (successful at my new higher fee – yippee!) as well as the never-ending small jobs of daily life with a young family have together taken all my time over the last couple of weeks. I plan to continue my series of posts on ‘interventions’ though, so stay tuned.

The birth I attended this week was very hard. It will take a lot of thinking about and I certainly learned a great deal. The end, though, was beyond worth it. Here’s Baby N (shared with permission):

Baby N

Interventions, part 2

If you are having a hospital birth, one of the first interventions you will face is an IV. Most commonly, a doctor might want to give you antibiotics if you have tested positive for Group B Strep* (in the US at least) or if you have another communicable illness; pitocin to induce or augment labour or to help prevent hemorrhage in the third stage of labour; or fluids to help keep you hydrated or in preparation for surgery. The downside to having an IV is that it tethers you. If you plan to have an epidural, that doesn’t really matter, but if you seek a natural birth it can make things harder. It doesn’t make movement impossible, but it does make it more difficult – just turning over from a side-lying position to being on all fours in bed is trickier, because you get tangled.

Many docs and midwives in hospitals will at least consider inserting an IV lock, which gives you freedom of movement but allows for the speedy administration of an IV if it becomes necessary. For my own last birth, I would have preferred not to have one at all – I was GBS-, labouring fast and hard, and kept drinking throughout. I had decided it was a ‘battle not worth fighting’ though, and agreed to the IV lock when I was admitted. It took five goes (five BIG bruises) to insert the lock and perhaps 10 minutes of trying. I have lovely big blue juicy veins too – except when I’m in labour. They vanish during contractions. That made me understand more fully why a care provider might feel more comfortable with a labouring mom who agrees to an IV-lock!

* In the US, mothers who are GBS+ are routinely administered 2 doses of antibiotics via IV during labour. GBS is a bacteria that colonises the vagina, just as other kinds of bacteria colonise the gut or the skin. It is not harmful to the mother, and it is rarely transmitted to the baby. However, when it IS transmitted, it can cause a very serious illness and death. Medics treat GBS+ mothers differently in different countries. You can read more about GBS over at Evidence Based Birth.



Interventions, part 1

Interventions are something I talk about with every mama with whom I work, so I thought I would write a series of short posts covering some of the oft-raised issues and questions. I’m going to try to go chronologically through labour and birth – although of course, since every woman’s experience is different, things happen in different orders for different mamas.

Many women are met at the doors of the hospital by a nurse offering a wheelchair. Some women sink into it gratefully and are happily wheeled to L&D. Some women plonk their hospital bag into it and stride along next to it, pausing to contract along the way. Some women say no. As with every intervention I plan on discussing here (and barring medical necessity) it doesn’t matter what your choice is, as long as it is your choice. Some women like the comfort of being wheeled: it signifies arrival at a safe place, where professionals will take care of them. Others feel as though accepting a wheelchair labels them as a patient, rather than a woman in labour, and prefer to walk. Also, choices change. If you planned on striding in but find yourself exhausted from labouring at home as long as possible, sit on down. If you hoped to ride in style but sitting feels like you are on a bowling ball, congratulations, there’s a baby in your pelvis, you’re going to have to walk. This is a small thing, but like everything in birth, it matters. It affects how you feel, and how you feel affects how you labour.

A second small choice is what to wear to labour. A hospital gown carries the same ‘I’m a patient’ label as the wheelchair, but no one cares when it gets messy and it also unsnaps brilliantly to allow for easy skin to skin when the baby is born. A special t-shirt (sometimes a partner’s t-shirt) can convey home and comfort and familiarity and not really be in the way. Apparently you can get fancy labouring gowns on the internet, but I’ve never seen one used. A bra might be helpful to keep pregnant boobs comfortable, or be in the way, or difficult to get off when necessary. How do you want to be in labour? What makes you feel comfortable and safe? Note: in the births I have attended or participated in so far, almost everyone ends up naked. The two who didn’t laboured so fast that they didn’t have time to get naked. So perhaps in the end this small choice is a less important one? Unless it is important to you.

If there’s a particular intervention or birth choice you would like me to discuss, please let me know in the comments.